What can I do? I can do...

1. Video editing
2. Camera work
3. Write music
4. Write songs
5. Sound engineer (Live & Studio)
6. Play keyboard
7. Play drums

What have I done? I have

1. Directed video camera shoots
2. Music producer
3. Musical directed bands
4. Film director
5. Made TV programs
6. Organised live video shoots
7. Made albums

What do I want to do?

1. Write a book.
2. Become a magistrate.
3. Get a PhD.
4. Be a special police constable (for city police).
5. Have my own TV station.
6. Make programs for BBC, ITV, Channel 4, Sky, etc.
7. Help young people.
8. Become a professor.
9. Become a millionaire.
10. Have a sanctuary for the rich and famous.
11. Start a school for gifted problem children.
12. Have a record company.
13. Build a hotel for my mum.
14. Buy back bells project for the elderly.
15. Own business properties.
16. Own private housing properties.
17. Make a difference in this world we live in.


As you can see I've written down my thought on what I want to accomplish in my lifetime. I don't see why I can't fulfill everything on this list.

About a few weeks ago I called a couple of friends, because got some news about my job. The job I'm currently doing has nothing to do with what I what to do or has any connection or relevance to what I'm studying. It was meant as a stopgap to build up finances to go into the areas I love. Which is production, weather music or TV. But it has been a bit of a dependency. Now this is under threat it has course me to reflect on what I am meant to be heading towards. I have opened my eyes. What I thought may have been a good idea at the time, has turn out to be a hindrance. Not everything is bad, gaining the experience is good, but.... only if it does not take away for the mark, goal or original plan. The focus must be prominent in one’s mind and a clear achievable goal to aspire to.

This unit reflection has also highlighted my achievement, successes and accomplishments. But also the things I have not. I asked my self the question, Why? Why is my list so long? And what is stopping me from doing them? One of the things I identified was financial. But one of my philosophies is that you can do anything your put you mind to do. And that was confirmed on last weeks post about Aleksey Vayner video on you tube. This is where reflection came in useful. I'd looked back at incidents prior and found that I have never tried. I have never tried I guess of fear of failure. I know that's a common thing but it's something I need to identify to move on with my list.

The next stage is over coming that fear and putting things in place to achieve the tasks. Of cause this is easier said than done. However it can be done!

What next!

The next move will be trying to establish the next move.  First what industry will I focus on, music or TV? I haven't spoken about my musical career yet or my experiences, I think it has not been as affluent at I would have liked. But again it could be down to the failure to try and establish my self in this part of my career. I know that music will never go away as it is embedded in my soul, every bit of my being oozes rhythm and melody. But I know I can do that at any time. But for now I need to concentrate on TV production.

A few days ago I did an edit for the development of a new idea, spent all night on it and thought, I must love this to be doing it. It’s moments like this that make things clear. Tuning your focus to the right place. Sometimes the smallest things remind you why your doing the things you love.